Sleepy

Angel got to come over today! I was late though. Didn't mean to of course, but we watched Alice in Wonderland and I passed out during the movie cause we had cotton candy with pure sugar. Anyways short blog, just a good day. I'm going to bed.. I drank a coke. So tired. Goodnight

What is wrong/right?

Today I'm officially out of alternative school. No more naps or sentences. Well I wont miss the sentences trust me.. the naps I was getting used too ;) I'm kind of worried about me and Ranna. We're spending a little more time arguing than I'd like. But I know it will work out. Oh and yesterday at the end of my post I wrote "thank the maker" this was a failed attempt at a Cars analogy. Where Mack yells "thank the manufacturer" I was close right?  Anyways have a good night. And a happy 'whatever doesn't offend you' :)

Today has been awful, hate to say it but today has been just terrible. I had fun at least. But it wasn't worth it. i might as well tell you what happened now shouldn't i? It started with the bus ride to a school, the one after i have to leave Ranna and get on a different bus to then ride for another 45 minutes to get to the school im supposed to end up at. My buddy wasn't on this morning so it was pretty dull, i must have passed out cause i woke up in the parking lot to Bowser telling me to get off the bus. He was already mad at me for falling asleep. And he singled me out all day long. Well i told you all how i was supposed to get out Friday? I wasn't lying, in the room on the calender my "release date" is still written on last Friday. Except last Friday i talked to Mrs. Robin and she told me she had double checked and that my last day was actually Monday. she said she "double checked" now remember that. it's important... today i talked to her, and this is exactly what she said " i checked again and your last day is tomorrow not today" i think she could tell i wasn't too happy cause she got out of the room pretty quickly.. This is twice now i've been told i was going to get out the next day. And it gets changed. Ranna actually asked me if i was lying to her?? Why would i lie about that? That's like telling people you're dieing when you aren't.. You just don't do it! Anyways, come lunchtime, and i had calmed down by then from my major disappointment... that and i had to look forward to telling Ranna on the bus that it's yet another day in Alternative school, that most people would agree i never should have gotten in the first place. Now something you have to understand about my teacher, she lets us do quite a bit more things than the other teachers would. Mostly because she taught Pre school before she started teaching us. Bummer for her right? But she lets us talk a bit during lunchtime. Nothing too loud, and we have to whisper. So their passing out our trays and i get mine (i call it a tray but its more like a Styrofoam box) so i look over at the next guy and ask him what one of the things on our tray is. He told me it was Fried Okra. (YUCK) Anyways as soon as he said that Bowser walks into the room and i could see a picture in my mind of him spitting fireballs at mario and luigi.. At the time i was mario and the kid next to me was Luigi, Instantaneous 200 Sentences.. I'm SO FED UP WITH WRITING SENTENCES YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE ME!

We get them in sets of 200, and im not joking with you or lying. This will be my 6th set. Do the math? That's 1200 DANG SENTENCES!!! Their not small either mind you.. their decent sized. But you write the sentence that correlates to the rule you broke. So i guess i deserve them all and im not exactly complaining. It would just be nice to not have to write them. Anyways the next let down is the one i just received. Ranna has this band thing tonight. And my dad isn't going to be home all day long. And my mom popped enough pills to kill a horse to try and dull her toothache. So even if she wanted to drive me. I wouldn't want to be in the passenger seat of THAT car anyways. I like living. So next i get to call Ranna's Wonderful mother and ask her if she can pick me up. I'm quite a bit scared. Considering just a couple of days ago i made her decently mad at me. But i really want to go see Ranna, so wish me luck? have a good day everyone. And a better tomorrow!
EDIT: My mother took more drugs than i thought, my dad just got home. IM SAVED!!!!!!!!!!! he's going to drive me.. thank the maker!

Im sorry..

Its really hard to find the right words sometimes. We've all been there, right? Trying to say we are sorry is difficult when you can't think of the right words.. or you know something you did or said is unforgivable. I said something yesterday that caused a lot of problems. I didn't think before I said it either, and I truly wish I could take it all back.. I'm thinking really hard now. Trying to find the right words that express the meaning I'm trying to get across. And I've never been good at it. I've never been able to communicate well with others. I did not mean those 4 words the way they sounded, but it hardly even matters anymore. I typed it without realizing the consequences of doing so. And I'm not trying to defend myself either. I am deeply sorry.. I know now that my words had an unintentional effect on others. And I honestly did not mean to upset or offend anyone. I'm not asking for forgiveness because looking back I can see that what I said yesterday was wrong. Im not an emotional person, I'm very detached from the world around me. If anything I'm antisocial. Growing up I had two friends, and not at the same time either. I dated my next door neighbor when I was 7, for a day. I'm hardly an outgoing person. And by all rights I don't usually get along with others. Whatever manners I have I learned just last Summer on a farm. Where I worked my A$$ off for no particular reason at all. 14 hour days in the first Job you could say I ever had. Outside in the sweltering weather during a drought. I have no idea why I'm typing this at all, I guess I'd like people to think I'm not a bad person, that I made a huge mistake and I'm stupid. But I don't feel like a good person, I feel like a Complete jerk.. I hurt the people I care about most.. and I just want to go into the fetal position in a corner and cry. I feel like I ruined something special with my stupidity. And no matter how much I wish I could take it all back I can't.. if the people that I hurt never want to talk to me again I can understand why.. I feel no better than the man who took those poor innocent lives. I don't know what I can possibly say to seek forgiveness. And I don't even think I deserve it. I apologize for my words and actions. I only hope I didn't destroy the only good thing in my life.. and that's my relationship. ;'(

Tomorrow is my last day of Alternative school! Monday i finally get to go back with the civilized people of the school system. That's about all that happened today really.. I got in trouble for "nonverbal talking.. since when does a staring contest get someone 200 sentences?? I mean come on i didn't even say anything.. i slowly looked over cause i had that "someone is staring at me" feeling, and the contest began... Then the teacher plopped on my desk  And said "200 SENTENCES!!" i guess it was her time of the month cause boy she was Pi$$ED OFF And she NEVER gets mad at me for anything, not even when im actually talking! Maybe its none of my business but i feel kinda sorry for her. Something bad must have happened in her life. She turned into a real Scrooge today.  Either way i got most of them done, I'll finish the last 20 or so later. Got tired of writing, my hand starts hurting.  That's about all that \'s happened so far today. Tomorrow i get out, and i never have to go back, At least that's the plan! Let's hope this plan comes together (Hannibal) A- Team is the best thing the 80's gave us! Good night. Hope you all ahvea good day!

Okay, i'm sorry if you're all expecting some sort of epic tale like yesterday. But today proved to be less fruitful, sadly it was... i took my hour long nap after lunch, which was actually some deliciously soggy fries, hot wings (not hot don't let them kid you..) and milk. that's about it... 6 wings, decent amount of meat on them. and 2 handfuls of the soggiest fries ever.. it's like someone threw 'em in a lake, and then served them. But they taste great. Anyways nothing else happened for the day. I read the book Christine, im on page 362 right now. only 120 or so to go. Good book, Stephen king has mental issues. Sorry for the uneventful catchup. All that happened after i got home is a stupid argument with Angel, that's about it.She somehow is able to read this while im typing it.. How else can you tell me my own spelling mistakes? AS I MAKE THEM?? Lol, anyways we had a small fight (ww3) and we got over it. I'[m gonan go now, not much to write for today sorry. I'll make up for it tomorrow :)

Bowser, FUNNY SH*T AND CHRISTmas... enjoy

Well, this is day 2 ! YAY !!!!! (party poppers and confetti!) It's been a h*ll of a day!!! You wouldn't believe how much fun i had in A school today. It started out oddly enough, new girl in class, she is not umm.. shall we say "honorable" as a female.. That should set your minds rolling. For the most part she wasn't that bad. It came to lunch time and the fangs showed though.
She started a fight with Bowser because she didn't get a PB&J sandwich like she asked for *demanded more like it..* well thats when it started getting interesting.. so i got moved, and oh my gosh i got moved next to one of those room dividers,
you know the type? but this one was made of a soft almost furry fabric... i started singing "FURRY WALLS DON'T LET ME DOWN, FURRY WALLS ARE ALL AROUND... FUUUURRRRRRYYYYYYYY" and the teacher almost had a heartattack cause i didn't realise i was yelling :D it was sooo funny.. the kid behind me almost took a dump in his seat cause he was asleep when i started singing.. it was so funny!! and then i came home.. well on the way home my mom flipped the bird to a dump truck driver. it was funny too, then i got home.. kissed up to her for a couple hours, and now im here.. what better way to end a day then writing out a blog of what i did that day? It's a decent pastime thats for daaang sure. Christmas is coming up soon MERRRYYY CHRISTMAS AND HO HO HO.
Jolly old St Nicholas is gonna come down your chimneys *if you got one* and steal your milk and cookies and leave some presents behind so that when you wake up in the morning screaming your head off because your parents are still asleep and you don't want em to be... or at least that's what I still do and im 16.. *big sh*t eating grin on my face while i do it too :) * and proceed to tear apart the wrappings with about as much grace and self control as a Cave man. i can't wait :) but we all must get on with our lives and look at the true meaning of CHRISTmas, which is to honor our savior Jesus Christ's birth. So thank you ladies and gentlemen, if i offended you. Get over it. I'm here to write a blog, not make anybody but me or my lovely girlfriend happy. so have good day :) seriously though, have a good day :) merry CHRISTmas <3 and a happy new years!

WELLL this is Day 1 !!!

Well, my girlfriend made me do this (that's my excuse anyways) and lets see here... I have absolutely no idea on earth what I'm doing. This is all quite new to me. There is a special person in my life obviously, I met her ALMOST 2 years ago. I've been happy ever since. Even though it took us a year to actually start talking on a more than friendly basis. In 6 months of talking we finally started dating. And I don't regret it one bit. Nothing in my life really changed me at all. Neither experiences with other people, or with my family. Until i met her, since then i feel changed. In a good way, because all i did before was start fights for bad reasons. Now at least i get into fights for the right reasons. Even if i lose them, or win them, at least i fight for what i beleive in. And for what i cherish most in my life. i hope this is a decent first post. :) i think we'll start doing this together <3